Take no thought...

 I hold my life with tight fists. All too often.
And all too often I figure this out after my day has been spent in that attitude. 
Lord Forgive me... and help me to grow.

Luke 12:22-32

Therefore I say unto you. Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, neither for the body, what ye shall put on.

The life is more than meat, and the body more than rainment.

Consider the lilies, how they grow, they neither toil not, nor spin not; and yet I say unto you, that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

If then God clothe the grass, which is today in the field and tomorrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, o ye of little faith?

And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind.

For all these things do the nations of the world seek after, and your Father knoweth ye have need of these things.

But rather seek ye first the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you.

Fear not little flock; for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom.

Doesn't that just say it all????

These words so comforted me!

How caught up I get each day in little 'everything'.
But life is more. 

More than me trying to make sure I've got it all. That I've got everything covered. That I've got enough.
I control each little detail so it fits in.

And it just don't work.

    if (well, l guess he does!)then God clothe the grass, which is today in the field andtomorrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, o ye of little faith?

and seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind.

...for your Father knows...

He knows! He knows me. And what I need. And not just what I need to be physically, but on every other level. I'm so caught up in physical needs and I'm setting growing in the Spirit aside!?

I'm getting so wound up in what I think I need, that I will not even let myself experience what I truly need.

I need to worship Him in Spirit & in Truth. 

 'experience' Him. 

seek Him first...and then all else shall be added.

unafraid for it is His pleasure to Give.

Hear is my prayer.

Because I forget. My day begins and gets busy and has gnawing worries and i forget. Right smack in the heat of the moment. I'm forgetting.

I'm forgetting He loves me.

I'm forgetting He bears burdens.

I'm forgetting that He will never give me more than I can bear.

I need to remember. Because He is good.

I need to remember and act like I remember. 

Live like there's no other way than Him.

Blessing & Promise

I have been thinking a lot about blessings lately.
Just seeing how wonderfully God has ordered things for me.
And how closely intertwined the things of my life are.
How the good and the bad are so closely linked.
I would rather just the good. I don't like pain and trials, things that weary me.
That chafe against me and my will.
I like the good, the quiet, the gentle, the things that make me feel good.
But I have blessing in trial.
Someone speaks careless words and they hurt.
Another take my words and twists them.
Things hoped for are not...there is more than just my will down here.
There is the thoughts and loves of others intersecting with mine.
And one learns grace... for every hard word. To keep quiet and so keep a quiet heart.
Can anger flourish were there is no heat to feed it?
To breath in grace and so release a soft answer.
One learns peace... for every time wills conflict. There I would go, yet here you would I stay.
So I learn to wait upon the Lord... His timing not mine. I rest in this blessed assurance.